Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Down on the Farm

I worry about my blueberry.

If he is reaching his milestones to early...to late...did I miss something...does he need more...does he need less? Am I doing the right things to ensure that he has a chance of being happy in this crazy mixed up world?



The last two days have been  snow days filled with hours of Blueberry playtime. We have been wearing our cozy sweaters and comfy pants.

He has taken a shine to a new friend---a holiday present that was tardy...a green squeaking dinosaur from the movie Toy Story.

E loves to hear the dino squeak.  They play hide and seek.  They dance and play the drum together. And they love to play on the farm. E  feeds the pig and the sheep to the eager kelly green t-rex.  A lot of love there.  You can see E look into the eyes of the dino as if he was real.  He talks his little sweet words to the t-rex and will grab him, hug him, and offer the dino his silly sloppy baby kisses.

So maybe I am doing something right.  It just took a squeaking green dino to show me what I had been looking at the entire time: a happy baby.

Friday, January 7, 2011

Happy New Year!

My blueberry is getting to be a big little boy!


Every year I make some resolutions.  And some times I even make good on them.
This year my resolution is simple and complicated---to respect myself again.


Before the baby my life was getting on track----I was painting, reading, feeling better about the way I looked, starting a new life out on my own.  Exciting stuff.


Working long work weeks and cramming baby-family quality time into any free moment I could find made last year the best exhausting year of my life....but some things about my life tended to drift away.
So this year I plan to reign them back in.
  • to keep better in touch with my friends
  • to travel
  • to paint
  • to read
  • to write
  • to garden
  • to eat better
  • to exercise more
  • to save
and a few new things:
  • a vacation as a family
  • learn to walk in high heals
  • a promotion
  • learn to finally sew
I want to offer my blueberry a beautiful and interesting world---and to do that I need to get back to being myself. He deserves the best mama I can be.